YET ANOTHER DOWNER POST...

OKAY IT SEEMS LIKE EVERYTIME I HAVE POSTED LATELY IT HAS ALL BEEN BAD STUFF - AND HERE IT CONTINUES. I CAN'T CATCH A BREAK TO SAVE MY LIFE - OKAY TODAY IT HAPPENED - THE ONE THING THAT I ALWAYS HAVE HAD NIGHTMARES ABOUT!! I CAN'T EVEN TYPE IT CAUSE IT IS SO SAD AND PAINFUL. I CAN'T EVEN BELIEVE IT HAPPENED.



MY BEAUTIFUL HEART SHAPED DIAMOND FELL OUT OF MY RING AND IS LOST FOREVER. I AM BEYOND SAD. MY KIDS WERE PROBABLY TRAUMATIZED BY MY SOBBING WHILE I SEARCHED EVERY SQUARE INCH OF MY HOUSE. I STUCK MY HAND IN THE GARBAGE DISPOSAL AND FELT AROUND TO MAKE SURE IT DIDN'T FALL IN THE SINK. I ALSO TOOK A SHOWER TODAY AND SO IT COULD HAVE FALLEN OUT IN THE SHOWER. I WENT TO THE DOCTOR, WALGREENS AND STAPLES AS WELL. I AM SICK ABOUT THIS. DEVIN TRIED TO COMFORT ME BY TELLING ME HE WOULD REPLACE IT, BUT IT STILL HURTS SO BAD. I LOOK DOWN AND SEE A BIG HOLE IN MY BEAUTIFUL WEDDING RING, AND TO TOP IT OFF I AM UNABLE TO TAKE MY RING OFF BECAUSE IT IS STUCK. IT WILL NOT BUDGE. I KNOW I WOULD HAVE TO SEVER MY FINGER IN ORDER TO TAKE IT OFF AND I THOUGHT ABOUT IT TRUST ME. IT IS HORRIBLE. I SAID A PRAYER ASKING MY FATHER IN HEAVEN TO HELP ME FIND MY DIAMOND, BUT NO LUCK SO FAR. IN THE BACK OF MY MIND I AM LIKE - WHY AM I NOT FINDING THIS DIAMOND?? HAVE I LOST FAITH?? HOW COULD THIS HAPPEN?? I KNOW THAT I AM VERY SENSITIVE SINCE IT ONLY HAPPENED TODAY, BUT I AM NOW OBSESSED WITH LOOKING DOWN WHEN I WALK JUST HOPING I MIGHT SEE MY DIAMOND GLIMMERING ON THE FLOOR/GROUND. I HOPE I FIND IT, BUT IF NOT MY SWEET HUSBAND HAS BEEN SO KIND. HE JUST HAD TO SIT ME DOWN AND TELL ME THAT EVEN IF WE DIED TODAY WE WOULDN'T BE WEARING OUR RINGS THROUGHOUT THE ETERNITIES SO IT IS OKAY. HE IS RIGHT AND I KNOW IT, BUT I CAN'T HELP BUT WISHING IT WASN'T REAL.

OH AND HERE IS ONE MORE THING. I POSTED ABOUT WHAT HAPPENED BETWEEN GINGER AND SADIE - WELL YODA AND SADIE DECIDED TO "SEAL THE DEAL" AND NOW SADIE WILL MORE THAN LIKELY BE HAVING PUPPIES HERE IN THE NEXT 63 DAYS. I CAN'T SEND HER AWAY PREGGO'S. THAT WOULD BE HORRIBLE. LUCKILY I HAVE SOME EXPERIENCE WITH WHELPING SO I WOULD FEEL BETTER WITH HER HERE WHERE I CAN HELP SADIE IF NECESSARY. PLEASE PRAY FOR ME!! I NEED TO BE ABLE TO HANDLE ALL OF THIS STRESS PLUS EVERYTHING ELSE. ALSO I AM PRAYING THAT THE NEXT TIME I POST I WILL BE ABLE TO SHARE MUCH HAPPIER AND POSITIVE EXPERIENCES. :) WE'LL SEE WHAT TOMORROW BRINGS. TAKE CARE EVERYONE.